random.

if i've a boyfriend who has venustraphobia, i'll probably go to a dark corner and cry my heart out. it is such a heartbreaking thing to know that in your lover's eyes, you'r not beautiful at all. well..i don't give a damn when others telling me that i'm such an ugly freak. it's alright. i accept the reality. BUT still i hope that in my lover's eyes.. i'm beautiful. After all, i'm still a girl. and which girl doesn't wish that she's beautiful in her lover's opinion.

and if i know that my boyfriend has sexophobia, i'll definately kick him back to the Mars. it'll be much much worst than having venustraphobia. it's either he never treats me as a girl or it's just a facade to hide his phobia. if he doesn't treat me as a girl, how can i ever be his girlfriend. so my reason is contradicting with my words. so i think most probably the reason will be the later one.

but why am i thinking so much when i don't even have a boyfriend. bahh.. no idea. perhaps that's what i called "random thought"

(9:21 PMY)