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I'm so sad.

My teacher said that i'm not qualify for the bursary award. And i guess i'm not qualify for the scholarship award too. I don't know why. Why didn't i get it while my friends recieved it?

If i'm not qualify for the bursary award, shouldn't i get scholarship award? since my teacher told me that bursary is not solely based on academic result. For scholarship award, i've reached all the criteria which i find it a bizarre thing for i didn't recieve it. WHY WHY!!

I want the award.

It is not just an award. It has more value than the stupid 300 bucks should be. I worked so hard throughout the year that i almost become a lunatic. I see the award as a reward for my hardwork and also an affirmation towards my ability. Now .. it's gone. I'm not satisfied with the sloppy answer my teacher gave. I hope she will give me a relatively good answer if not.......................... i also can't do anything.. hai...

anyway.. i shall stop talking about it. Today, i just finished my 3.2km run. I almost died. At a moment, i thought i was going to see my heavenly father. Lucky, God still remembers my face and continue to let me breathe and stay alive. so here i'm.. whining away

(11:55 PMY)